We've been talking ALL night...



Around 23:30 she said something in cyber about meeting me, without planning or committing or even thinking of something specific like those things I run in my head - come to see me she said. That simple.


I'm going to meet her. It's around midnight. Her dog is barking at me right by the door.

I enter a big apartment. Lots of paintings on the walls and big colorful pillows on the floor. I lay my ass on one spreading my legs (I had to, due to the low sitting condition). Her dog placed himself between my legs, exposing his unfriendly teeth and for the first time in my life I was afraid for my 'best friend'. I wasn't sure where to place my hands. If I protect 'him' will I look afraid? if I let go and pretend myself calm will it expose my fear? And what if I simply stop being a smartass?


I decided to behave as if I were fearless. I even stretch my hand to caress him (the dog, the dog...what were you thinking). He gave me a small bite in return.


'Very strange the way he responds to you' she said, 'are you having a sexual energy now?'


Honestly, I don't remember when I DIDN'T have that energy' I answered looking at him, still standing there between my legs.


'But it is not about him, the energy' I continued, staring at him.